Too hard for me

Today i feel so stress...not because of work more to personal life...
I had a short break down...i can' t believe the things that hv been told about my brother by his teacher...it really break my hearts..how can he do that to his family...we trusted him and this is how he give bck to us....really disappointed..can believe him any more...no more special treatment for him...i going to take all his privilege...starting today

make thing simple

Why oh why? Things have to be so complicated...can't they make everything simple and easy...the thing is so simple but why people want to make it so damn hard...lets start with my side work (that have not been profitable) the 'K', this one particular people have make a simple job very complicated, the reason why this person make things complicated is because she/he does not want to learn..they also don't want to asked people that are knowledgeable in this area..why so hard to ask? People will gladly share with you their knowledge....'this is my thought of yesterday' BUT TODAY....people don't like to share...why i said this is because i hv been in the shoes of the another people who gladly want to learn but being rejected or coldly ignore because they are to busy...what is this about? do gaining a knowledge require time when people not busy only or it can happen every time....

One more thing that i don't like being chase of work...i know my job please don't go bothering me every time i see you...anyway the thing you asked me to do is not my core task...i need time as it require my creativity side...come on...i want to produce something that hv quality not just a simple thing that people won't value or just ignore it...i want something that will give big impact...if you keep bothering me i will do the job like 'melepaskan batuk di tangga'...or worst come to worst i will quite...anyway, i don't like doing that particular task...
I need break....i really need break...from this hectic task...i hv considering finding a new job which will make we more satisfied....that give me freedom to think n i don't have to bother of other people feelings....help...help...help
(All above this is a post for 2 weeks ago)

Today i feel so tired, angry n disappointed...why people don't like to admit that they are wrong...early in the morning my brother just make me so angry, this is because his daily allowance is missing...i will not be very angry if he admit he took it, his denial make me so disappointed at him...today i feel so tired, i cant watch a 15 years old boy...who is so lazy, very pampered, not real interest in education, like to play all day long, n mostly lied to me several times without feeling wrong..i so tired, my soul n body can't take it...the pressure...